January 2013

I forgive em. I barely care. I don’t get excited about too many things…

All I know is hockey is back tomorrow. As much as I’d like to take a stand on the principle of the thing…. Owners shmoners/players shmayers. It ain’t my fight. Drop that puck boys, lets rumble. Is anyone else stoked?

Sid’s saucer passes.   Geno entering the zone, and slapping one into the twine.   Orpik laying the lumber.    Fleury flashing a glove or two.   Man, I’m pumped.

Full blown winter here.   I plowed the driveway twice yesterday and once this morning.    Drove home up the canyon 25 in a 55.     I could see the road better with my lights off, in the driving snow.

I love what I do.   I feel most days, that I’m in full stride.     To be involved and with my nose to the grindstone, making good decisions and contributing….. man, that’s a good day, and they string together.     I’ve found my family.   Blood is thick, and they share common ground that you just can’t explain.   Eyes are on me here.   Bring it on.    Coming up here is good for me, and I can’t help but know that is good for my own family.

But man, I keep looking at weather.com for a break in the weather.    I almost took my bike to work at 2 degrees in the morning, down the canyon.    I’d have done it if I was positive the roads weren’t icy.     I wasnt.     Fuck it, I don’t care if I look like the Michelin man on a bike….. I’m jonesing to ride, and its only January.

Can’t wait for the Easy Rider tour in May with Eagle Rider.    Hopefully my stories are right, my company is sure and beyond that I’ll figure it out.

When is this snow over with.   I’m ready to ride.

Yesterday was a good day.   I signed some papers that ended a 2 year struggle and put some finality, and even some justification to the worst period of my life.     Even today, I feel like king of my mountain.

I settled the biggest debt of my life yesterday. It’s such a relief. 2 years of work to pay for the biggest mistake maybe I’ve ever made. Life seems pretty good right now.

The biggest mistake of my life, for the record was not trusting my instincts and trusting a partner to take care of the books.     Long story short, he didn’t.   I got  lazy,  things crashed, and he went into hiding. I decided to face the music. At the time, I felt I couldn’t live that way, and I’m glad I didn’t.   Its been a stress on my family of dealing with the IRS, one creditor after another, and a whole slew of others.

Got the taxes settled yesterday.Hopefully the final step in starting over, and trying to maybe build  something good again. A little wiser, and lessons learned. Things have been tight, my wife and kids have stuck with me.   Can’t ask for more, and life seems good again.

I feel bad for my poor ex business partner to be honest. Hiding ain’t no way to live.    I hid for a while, but no more.   I’m kinda learning that life is pretty sweet when you move to hit it head on.

Anyone want a beer? I’m buyin’ 🙂