Change is gonna happen, its as constant as the sun coming up.
I love being 40, uh, whatever the hell age I am. I’ve honestly forgot. 43 or 44, fuck if I care to pay attention lol.
But I am enjoying this time in life. Starting to feel a creak in my knees, and this cold weather makes me stand up a bit slower, but its nice to have some balance. Where you can see bullshit; where you can decide to ignore some of it, store a little, and use a little as fuel. 40 something is kick ass.
I’ve also started to appreciate some things. My kids. Starting to realize how fast they grow up, and that a few things here will mean big things there, and to their kids when I’m a grandpa.
I’m enjoying the seasons. Enjoying driving down the canyon and the world looks a little different than it did yesterday (and it does here). Enjoying the fact that it was cold today, but the sky was a color that you can really only feel, and you can’t separate what your eyes are showing you, from what your senses are telling you.
Fuck me, I’m becoming my old man.
Even this economy. Its slowed everyone down, and the thoughful are thinking. I watch the youth that have the time because they’re too short sighted and spoiled to get a job sleeping in parks and holding up signs. I can’t go all republican or democrat on that, because maybe thats a tool we can use later on. Forgive the metaphor: but if the world is playing chess, you gotta have a pawns on the board. Sometimes the board will get the king (most times it takes a couple), but it happens. I feel like I’m old enough to sit back on watch, and watch a little CNN in the meatime, from the comfort of the couch I paid cash for, from my motherfucking job :). Lets see what happens there. All I know, is that its the people that go to work that are going to bail them out again, no matter what happens.
Just a thought.
PS – Repo man never called me yet. Slack asses.