Random Thoughts

This weekend, I’m riding down to a rally that I coordinated for a couple of years.   The vendors, the food, the bike games, the poker run, dealing with the casino management.  It’s been 3 years since I’ve been to it.  The last time I was there, it was the lowest point of my life, and it culminated, at least for me that weekend.  Shit came to a head, one Saturday night.  Shit I’m embarrassed about, but in hind sight, taught me a thing.  I haven’t been back there since.     I turned in my BACA patch not long after.

in November of 2010, I was 4 million dollars in debt from a business that had gone pretty far south.  From shit that under normal circumstances, I’d have known better.  It effected my psyche, my marriage, and definitely my self confidence.  This rally was where it came to a head, at least for me and I realized I needed to turn things around.

When my mom died in 2011, it was the start of  where I started to snap me out of it.  It was time to focus. I’m very grateful for that part.

I haven’t been back to this area since I left there, almost 2 1/2 years ago.   I just need to go back and re-do this weekend, on my own terms.   My wife doesn’t particularly  understand how much it means to me.   Maybe that’s just how men are, and women are.    We see things differently.   I need to make it right for her too.

Then its fuck all.   The last piece I kinda need to move past it, once and for all.  I’m still not out from under the decisions of that time, but I will be.    Most days, I feel pretty bullet proof.

I’m looking forward to having a whole helluva lot of fun, and reunite with some friends I truly care about.  Mostly, because I know they are my friends.

Plus its my last, major ride of the season before the snow flies.    I got some road time to sum it all up.    Hell yes.    This is a good thing.

I’ll give a full report.

Fokker out.

 

The smoker is fired, ribs are rubbed, and just waiting for my daughter to get home from the store so we can see who is the biggest loser:   The Steelers, or the Vikes.    They had to go to the UK to find out.

Either way, my blood is black and gold.

This is kinda funny:

Making fun of the “Affordable” care act, and Breaking Bad:   these are a few of my favorite things.      Annnnd, Raindrops on roses.

 

A pretty busy saturday today.   I’m just now decompressing, and having a little Zip time.

The wife and I have been doing some picking lately.   Buying low, and selling high.  It satisfies my inner greed.   We make a good team,  I enjoy the time with her, and I get to learn a thing.     I like to barter, and I’ts fun meeting people and interacting.      I’m enjoying it.   It started at the break of dawn again.

Then we dropped the youngest off at a birthday party, and had some time to scout out some antique shops.    I love the history.    So much like riding:   Any given piece has a history, and a story behind it.    It makes my mind race.       I love it.        That rotted out and rusty wagon wheel supported a family, going somewhere.     That lunch box was the pride of some kid at school.     That soldiers helmet was at the front line, of a battle I may or may not have read about.      That clock stood on someones mantle.

Our oldest daughter came home today.     We picked her up at the airport, and asked a stranger to shoot a family photo.

I couldn’t ask for better kids.    I’m a pretty lucky dude.

Smoker is fired up, Spare ribs are rubbed and in the fridge to go on in an hour, football is tonight and it stopped raining.     I feel like a King I tell ya!

 

Saw this today.    It made me laugh.   Its sorta true.

 

Hope you have a killer Sunday, Enjoy the day!

I’m seeing pictures of my oldest daughter in Connecticut, and I’m proud of her.    She’s 18, and taking on her world.     Its pretty weird for me, but its exactly as it should be.

I am not a religious guy, but you can find good in everything.   Joseph Smith said (and I’m digging deep here) “teach them correct principles, and let them govern themselves”.      I think theres a lot of truth to that.

She’s having the time of her life, just how it should be.   She needs to test herself, find out who she is, and stand on her own two legs.    She’ll do that.

Wierd as hell tho, for me.   This is new ground.   I’ve never been here before.

I got good kids.

I need a morning on the road.   where  you wake up, wherever you’re at, and the sun just starts creeping through  your window.      Whatever it is.    You find some coffee, and look to the road.    Make a decision at the intersection.      Thats a  perfect day.

Ran down to work this morning to get some stuff done that’s been driving me nuts for a while.     Bad wiring drives me nuts.     I cleaned it all up.   Feels better 🙂

This song hit the radio on the way back.     This has been on my road song playlist for a long time, but its always better when a song you like hits the radio.     Feels like you’re enjoying it with everyone in town.   At least if feels that way.

 

 

 

The Wild Wild West

When I was a kid, this was my favorite TV show.   I had the Wild Wild West Lunchbox, and was proud to have it.    Jim West and Artemus Gordon were the shit.    I still wish I had that lunchbox, It might be worth something now. It even had the Wild Wild West Thermos.

 

Bonanza

I remember going to the Ponderosa Ranch in Lake Tahoe as a kid.   I’ve got pictures of it somewhere.    I was always partial to Hoss.   He was everybody’s friend.    I think that theme park is long gone.

 

 

The Six Million Dollar Man

Chock full-0-cheese, but as an 8 year old kid, you had to watch.   At school, we all pretended to be  this guy.   I can still hear that sound he makes when Steve Austin did something bionic.    No matter how cool you think you may be, you never put the wood to Farrah Fawcett.   Just remember that.

 

 

The Twilight Zone

Most of these were before my time, but re-runs were different then they are now.      This is still a favorite.     Rod Serling is a stud.    He served in WWII, was a bit of a  free thinker, and the Twilight Zone was his baby.   It shows.   I’m a fan. I still watch these.

 

 

Hogans Heroes

My big brother turned me onto this one.       Check out Richard Dawson, before he was kissing old ladies and shouting “Survey SAID!”. Classic.

 

Star Trek

I admit it, Me and Missus Zip are Trekkies.     Even been to a convention.    Gene Roddenberry was the man.

 

Ahhhh, they don’t make em like they used to 🙂